20 September 2010

curl or straight..?

when u see at my picture.. what new hair style suits me best..?

i wanted to changed my look
seriously.. i'm in the middle of thinking should i just changed the overall look
curl or straight..?
i don't know..
anyway please vote ur favorite.
i want hear from u guys ya~

one day.. when i am 100% happy with myself and my new life
i would be sure
u'll be shock at what i turned out to be
i can live my life without u, a much better life
and once u want me back
i wont accept u
because the wound that u layed on me is now turned into a scar that cant be removed
i might cry like a child that lost her way now
but i know my tears would be dry soon
and i wont shed another tear for u
because i have just realized it is not worth it.

to my MR.S
thankz for everything
u always with me
when i sad and happy
i am ur xiao ben dan forever.

11 September 2010



raya ker.. tapi macam tak raya pun. damn boring..!
malam raya balik kerja kul 1 pg.
super duper tired.
walao~ pagi raya my dad kol suruh bangun balik kampung.
hais~ malas n rasa nak tido tido tido n tido. haha~
i drive sorang balik kampung.
malas coz 6 bulan i tak drive kereta lepas excident hari tu.. rasa macam fobia gak. tapi kena berani. yes.. ieda u can do it..! LOL.. haha~
tuk kawan-kawan semua saya
nak ucapkan
selamat hari raya
salam aidilfitri..

10 September 2010

i still ❤ u..

I realized something... love does'nt exist... yah..
it doesnt... but what is this feeling i feel inside?
why does it hurts every time i see the person i assume i love happy with another girl?
why do i feel hate towards her?
is it because his not with me?
is it because he cheated me?
If love does exist.. then i would say i love her...
yes.. i love her.. yes ieda.. u love her... but i guess its not enough...
she doesnt see it.. what can i do to get her back?
can i take another beating to the ground?
can i take feeling heartbroken after her broke my heart twice?
i want she back..ouh god..i really do want she back to me again..
i'll do anything... but face the fact ieda... her wont come back...
she happy with "her"....hmmmm.....
anyway... i felt like dying after seeing their pictures and cmmts..
yes i am a stalker.. but i only stalk people who matters to me...
and seriously it hurts more?
why do i like to find pain?
why cant i just give up and move on?
....well..its just because i cant....so yah...
it hurts..
its killing me......
i love she eventho i know its wrong..
im not supposed too...

I HATE MYSELF ..!!!!!!